Change

Alright peeps! One of my fans has been (gently) hounding me for quite some time to get back into blogging. These days you would never know it, but writing is and always has been one of my favorite pastimes.... which is why I should be more proactive about dedicating at least a few minutes out of each day to the written word. J - you asked for it! This one's for you :)

Change is difficult, no matter how you cut it or how it is brought forth. And with big change comes a whirlwind of emotions: confusion, fear, and hope, not to mention that persistent queasiness that refuses to loosen its grip on your tummy. 2010 has already brought a great deal of change into this lady's life. As you may know, I tend to take my New Year's Resolutions pretty seriously. Last year I chose to run a half-marathon, and in case you haven't kept up... that proved to be successful as I'll be running my fourth this coming Sunday. It's no great feat as I'm slow and greatly lack consistency in training, but at the end of the day... I have turned one goal into a glowing reality almost four times over. My goal for 2010? To be more fiscally conservative and put more into my savings then I have in recent years. So, I left my darling (though troubled) studio and the comfort of having my own place... and moved into a flat in Russian Hill. In so doing I've taken on 2 awesome roommates and am saving almost $400/month on rent. So... I found the timing to be quite serendipitous when I found out my job was eliminated a couple of weeks ago. While I'd already begun to submit my resume around, timing is suddenly of the essence whereas before I could interview and submit my resume... all at a relaxing, comfortable pace.

I'm now three days away from my last day here at Le Ritz.... and while I haven't solidified my next move, a number of offers have presented themselves. Now while I recognize this to be a positive, I can't help but feel overwhelmed with the pressure to balance choosing the right opportunity without rushing into a position that doesn't provide the necessary emotional and financial well-being. I'm a firm believer in sayings such as "What's meant to be will be" and "If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it".... and have found that reminding myself of these words of wisdom (repeatedly) are about the only thing that can slow my racing heart rate and push back the tears as I fight the frustrations and panic attacks that arise from the feeling of completely losing control.

Yup, 2010 has already brought forth a great deal of change. And for change to prove successful, one must make adjustments and not be afraid to venture out of their comfort zone. Is it easy? Of course not. But, I keep reminding myself that the best things never are.